Right Around the Corner

Yeah, I’ve been pretty bad about posting lately but for a very good reason. I have been working out morning, noon and night. For various reasons my test didn’t happen in February and then March slid by without a date set, well most of March anyway. Right at the end of the month I got the official word as to when I would step on the mat and test for my black belt.

I got the date and its right around the corner. I’m thinking less time to dwell on the date is best since it will give me less time to get nervous. And I’m nervous enough already. A week from tonight, April 8th, by this time I should know if I’ve passed my exam. Next Friday will be here before I know it. The time will fly by, I’m sure of it. I must admit that I am really glad that I didn’t test in February. Sometime around the tenth of last month (March) I had this sudden realization about just how much I didn’t know. Following that I trained even harder, applying myself physically and mentally to the task at hand. I honestly think it was mental readjustment that made the biggest difference. I literally decided that I was going to change a few things and did.

For the past week or so I have been feeling awesome about my karate. I’ve been really happy with the progress that I’ve been making. That was until about Wednesday of last week. Suddenly I felt like I was getting worse – like I was back to my old self. I talked to my instructor about it, asking if that should happen and he told me yes. That’s all he said. And he told me that I was doing great and he was really happy with what I was doing. That confused me – not at all what my perception of the situation was. I thought about it for a while and maybe I’ve figured it out.

Perhaps it is like I’ve said all along. The more I know, the more I realize I have to learn. My huge breakthrough in moving forward just showed me how much more there is that should be done – that can be done.

I’m training harder now. I don’t ever intend to quit learning.